Well, so much for checking in tomorrow. My life has turned into a never-ending merry-go-round of craziness-- at least it feels that way at the moment. I'm hoping it settles down soon (or I get used to my new normal).
Anyway, positive encouragement came my way in spades this weekend. I had more than one person out of the blue ask if I'm losing weight and comment that I'm really looking fit! Honestly, I think nothing boosts me more than sincere compliments from other people (especially when they don't know I'm trying to lose weight-- somehow it makes the compliments more real). Second, my weigh in this weekend came in at 145.8. Wow! Finally something to show for my hard work! Judging by the past I will probably see it up higher again...but still, this is very encouraging.
Continuing on with the normal. I'm up to 14 miles on my long Saturday runs, preparing for the marathon. I think it's finally time for me to look into marathon nutrition. Just eating normal and enjoying the big calorie burning day has been good enough so far, but I'm really running out of steam towards the end of those runs. I'll need to find a good solution that doesn't stop my weight loss cold. (I don't think I want to try carbo loading-- but I need to do some research first.)
Don't give up! We only fail if we quit~
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Discouraged
OK, a little late posting this week's weigh in--
147.6.
I can live with that. Unfortunately, last night I let stress get to me and after doing so good all day turned to mindlessly snacking while I was reading. I am so frustrated with myself! Worse, this morning, I've eaten terribly-- too much sugar, not enough protein-- so my body is craving more, more junk. And I'm so tired, I haven't gotten enough rest of the last few days, so I think I'm craving junk in a desperate bid for quick energy.
None of this will help me in the long run. How do I get back on track today? How do I let go of past mistakes and move forward? Even harder, how do I deal with wanting to eat when I'm tired (and actually getting the rest that I need is not an option yet?)
I don't know.
I have to keep going. But it feels so hard this morning. So tired. So blue. Where has my determination gone?
I'll check in again tomorrow. There has to be a way through this.
147.6.
I can live with that. Unfortunately, last night I let stress get to me and after doing so good all day turned to mindlessly snacking while I was reading. I am so frustrated with myself! Worse, this morning, I've eaten terribly-- too much sugar, not enough protein-- so my body is craving more, more junk. And I'm so tired, I haven't gotten enough rest of the last few days, so I think I'm craving junk in a desperate bid for quick energy.
None of this will help me in the long run. How do I get back on track today? How do I let go of past mistakes and move forward? Even harder, how do I deal with wanting to eat when I'm tired (and actually getting the rest that I need is not an option yet?)
I don't know.
I have to keep going. But it feels so hard this morning. So tired. So blue. Where has my determination gone?
I'll check in again tomorrow. There has to be a way through this.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Heidi's Weigh-In #8
So my weigh-in on Sunday was 149.0 lbs. Seriously???? I think my body conspires when it's time for me to actually record the weight. During the week I saw my weight get as low as 146.2. So the 149 was a bit (OK, more than a bit) disappointing.
Not giving up yet. I only fail when I quit.
Not giving up yet. I only fail when I quit.
Thursday, July 24, 2014
Umm, Checking In, Kinda
No posts for two weeks!
In my defense, my life has been crazy around here. However, I'm fairly proud of the fact that I have still (mostly) kept my eating in line despite the insanity. Also, my exercise has been consistent, hooray for that! With all my hard work, my official weigh in last Sunday was at 148.0 lbs. Which means I've lost all the weight I put on during vacation.
*doing a little happy dance*
I know, some people might look at me askance for celebrating re-losing weight I had already lost the month before, but let's face it, in the reality of long-term healthy weight maintenance, vacation is going to throw you off track. Maybe once or twice you've probably gone on vacation and still managed to hold fast to your ultra-low-carb lifestyle or whatever strict diet is currently in vogue, but most of us like to enjoy ourselves on vacation-- and in my case, that means enjoying the meals out that I'm eating. It also means snacking like crazy while trying to stay awake on a long car drive. So I'm not going to get down on myself and focus on the fact that if I hadn't gained any vacation weight I would be that much farther ahead. Instead, I'm going to focus on the fact that I enjoyed my vacation, and then got back into my healthy eating groove when I got home! (That's the tricky part.)
In my defense, my life has been crazy around here. However, I'm fairly proud of the fact that I have still (mostly) kept my eating in line despite the insanity. Also, my exercise has been consistent, hooray for that! With all my hard work, my official weigh in last Sunday was at 148.0 lbs. Which means I've lost all the weight I put on during vacation.
*doing a little happy dance*
I know, some people might look at me askance for celebrating re-losing weight I had already lost the month before, but let's face it, in the reality of long-term healthy weight maintenance, vacation is going to throw you off track. Maybe once or twice you've probably gone on vacation and still managed to hold fast to your ultra-low-carb lifestyle or whatever strict diet is currently in vogue, but most of us like to enjoy ourselves on vacation-- and in my case, that means enjoying the meals out that I'm eating. It also means snacking like crazy while trying to stay awake on a long car drive. So I'm not going to get down on myself and focus on the fact that if I hadn't gained any vacation weight I would be that much farther ahead. Instead, I'm going to focus on the fact that I enjoyed my vacation, and then got back into my healthy eating groove when I got home! (That's the tricky part.)
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Yikes!!!
Vacation is HARD when it comes to weight loss. I know that up front, and I try to resign myself to the fact that I will not make any progress during a trip. Hoping the lessen any weight gain I still stick to an exercise regime and try to be somewhat conscious of my food choices.
This time I was particularly pleased with myself because I even managed to get in a full 13 mile run Saturday morning, including hills (a new experience for a girl who lives in desert flat land). But I can't say I ate sensibly. Not exactly.
Still, I couldn't help the shock when I stepped on the scale back home and found I'd gained nearly 7 pounds!
All that work I've done over the last two months, completely down the tube. But there is an important weight loss lesson here too. I could throw in the towel, beat myself up for "failing," and simply eat my way back up the scale. Or I can pick myself up off the ground, remind myself that I only fail if I give up, and wade back into the fray again.
I choose option #2. It's not over yet!
This time I was particularly pleased with myself because I even managed to get in a full 13 mile run Saturday morning, including hills (a new experience for a girl who lives in desert flat land). But I can't say I ate sensibly. Not exactly.
Still, I couldn't help the shock when I stepped on the scale back home and found I'd gained nearly 7 pounds!
All that work I've done over the last two months, completely down the tube. But there is an important weight loss lesson here too. I could throw in the towel, beat myself up for "failing," and simply eat my way back up the scale. Or I can pick myself up off the ground, remind myself that I only fail if I give up, and wade back into the fray again.
I choose option #2. It's not over yet!
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Heidi's Weigh-In #7
Well, I'm continuing on the minor up-and-down of the scale that has been my life for months now. Today's weigh-in came to 149.0. (-0.4 from last week).
Seriously, if I were doing this ranging up and down five pounds eternal and I were at my ideal weight, it would be fantastic!
But being stuck here doesn't feel so much like it.
I'm leaving on vacation this week, hopefully I can make wise choices while still having an enjoyable time and not obsessing over every bite that goes into my mouth. Wish me luck!
Seriously, if I were doing this ranging up and down five pounds eternal and I were at my ideal weight, it would be fantastic!
But being stuck here doesn't feel so much like it.
I'm leaving on vacation this week, hopefully I can make wise choices while still having an enjoyable time and not obsessing over every bite that goes into my mouth. Wish me luck!
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Heidi's Weigh-in #6
Well, my weigh-in this week was up again...149.4 (which is +1.4 lbs from last week). It's so baffling. My weight dropped down to 147 during the week but of course didn't stay there. I need to go look up my old weight charts from back the last time I lost so much weight. Was it always like this? Or am I just stuck in my forever plateau?
There is one major difference between the last time I lost all this weight and now. I worried about it less then. I was so content with how I looked by this particular weight and so patient about just letting things happen when they happened. There was no drama about having gained a pound back over a week, nor any angst about how I looked. I felt so confident because at that point all I focused on was how much better I felt for the first time in years.
I don't have that euphoric feeling anymore. It makes this so much harder. I get discouraged so easily, and I just don't see myself as successful (like I did before). Silly. I'll keep on plugging along though.
There is one major difference between the last time I lost all this weight and now. I worried about it less then. I was so content with how I looked by this particular weight and so patient about just letting things happen when they happened. There was no drama about having gained a pound back over a week, nor any angst about how I looked. I felt so confident because at that point all I focused on was how much better I felt for the first time in years.
I don't have that euphoric feeling anymore. It makes this so much harder. I get discouraged so easily, and I just don't see myself as successful (like I did before). Silly. I'll keep on plugging along though.
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