Well, I'm continuing on the minor up-and-down of the scale that has been my life for months now. Today's weigh-in came to 149.0. (-0.4 from last week).
Seriously, if I were doing this ranging up and down five pounds eternal and I were at my ideal weight, it would be fantastic!
But being stuck here doesn't feel so much like it.
I'm leaving on vacation this week, hopefully I can make wise choices while still having an enjoyable time and not obsessing over every bite that goes into my mouth. Wish me luck!
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Heidi's Weigh-in #6
Well, my weigh-in this week was up again...149.4 (which is +1.4 lbs from last week). It's so baffling. My weight dropped down to 147 during the week but of course didn't stay there. I need to go look up my old weight charts from back the last time I lost so much weight. Was it always like this? Or am I just stuck in my forever plateau?
There is one major difference between the last time I lost all this weight and now. I worried about it less then. I was so content with how I looked by this particular weight and so patient about just letting things happen when they happened. There was no drama about having gained a pound back over a week, nor any angst about how I looked. I felt so confident because at that point all I focused on was how much better I felt for the first time in years.
I don't have that euphoric feeling anymore. It makes this so much harder. I get discouraged so easily, and I just don't see myself as successful (like I did before). Silly. I'll keep on plugging along though.
There is one major difference between the last time I lost all this weight and now. I worried about it less then. I was so content with how I looked by this particular weight and so patient about just letting things happen when they happened. There was no drama about having gained a pound back over a week, nor any angst about how I looked. I felt so confident because at that point all I focused on was how much better I felt for the first time in years.
I don't have that euphoric feeling anymore. It makes this so much harder. I get discouraged so easily, and I just don't see myself as successful (like I did before). Silly. I'll keep on plugging along though.
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Heidi's Weigh-In #5
So I decided to change my official weigh-in day to Sunday morning. I think it's silly, but there is always a huge difference between my weight on Saturday and my weight on Sunday, and I'm going to quit depressing myself. (For example, yesterday morning I weighed in at 150.4-- after seeing lower numbers all week!-- and this morning was quite different.)
Anyway, today I weighed in at 148.0. I don't know if I'll stay here, but at least half the days this week were in the 148 range so maybe so. Such a small difference in numbers but such a huge impact on my mood!
I'm not celebrating anything yet. But when I break this plateau barrier and reach 145, I'm going to throw myself a party or something!
Anyway, today I weighed in at 148.0. I don't know if I'll stay here, but at least half the days this week were in the 148 range so maybe so. Such a small difference in numbers but such a huge impact on my mood!
I'm not celebrating anything yet. But when I break this plateau barrier and reach 145, I'm going to throw myself a party or something!
Friday, June 13, 2014
Baby Blues
I have been a bad blogger. I think that when a person is excited about losing weight or achieving weight loss goals it is a lot easier to blog. Excitement over something makes the words pour out! I am not sure what is going on with me these days, I just feel a little blue. I don't know if I go so far as to say I am depressed (although that is probably more accurate) so I prefer to label it as 7 months after having a baby I am still feel a little post-pardum blue-ness. Don't get me wrong, I haven't given up on losing weight, I am just in a state of appatheticness about it (is that a word?).
Anyhoo. I am still plugging along. I finally lost weight this week. I was just ready to give myself an extra cheat day (in honor of fathers day - that's a holiday, right?) because I haven't been losing much weight and I didn't see the point in being so strict with myself. But then I stepped on the scale and saw that I had lost 3 lbs, so it kicked me in the butt to keep doing what I am doing, Slow and steady is tough though...I struggle with whether I can keep going or what the point is.
I think Fridays should be my official weigh in day because it is my slow work day and I am more likely to blog :). So this morning I weighed in at 195.6. I am 5 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight (I had slowly let 40lbs creep back up on me, it took 4 years to gain those 40lbs but come back they did).
As for exercise I am struggling with the fact that I seem to hate running, so instead of pushing myself to run a lot, I went back to the Ragnar training schedule for beginners. I need to think of myself as a beginner again. I don't plan on running a Ragnar anytime soon but it really starts out slow and works you up to a long distance. This is the training plan that I used with lots of success in 2010, so hopefully it works out again this time.
Anyhoo. I am still plugging along. I finally lost weight this week. I was just ready to give myself an extra cheat day (in honor of fathers day - that's a holiday, right?) because I haven't been losing much weight and I didn't see the point in being so strict with myself. But then I stepped on the scale and saw that I had lost 3 lbs, so it kicked me in the butt to keep doing what I am doing, Slow and steady is tough though...I struggle with whether I can keep going or what the point is.
I think Fridays should be my official weigh in day because it is my slow work day and I am more likely to blog :). So this morning I weighed in at 195.6. I am 5 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight (I had slowly let 40lbs creep back up on me, it took 4 years to gain those 40lbs but come back they did).
As for exercise I am struggling with the fact that I seem to hate running, so instead of pushing myself to run a lot, I went back to the Ragnar training schedule for beginners. I need to think of myself as a beginner again. I don't plan on running a Ragnar anytime soon but it really starts out slow and works you up to a long distance. This is the training plan that I used with lots of success in 2010, so hopefully it works out again this time.
Green Goodness
I haven't checked in all week!
I've been doing great about sticking to my allotted calories. I've even managed to get all my water in this week (pretty much). The veggies goal has been harder. I just don't like them. There are a few I like, and I enjoy a good salad piled high from a good salad bar, but that's not practical for at home veggie cramming. When I'm hungry for a snack I just don't reach for the cherry tomatoes or a cucumber, you know what I mean? Sauteed zucchini takes effort. I love jicama, but chopping a jicama into edible pieces is something that is way too easy to put off. So I eat a lot of baby carrots, but there's only so many of those I can eat in a day before my digestive system is quite messed up, if you catch my drift.
A good green smoothie helps get at least one veggie serving in, and I've found one that I can make pretty easily at home. The trouble is finding the right balance between taste and a reasonable amount of calories. The better tasting the green smoothie, the more likely that it's sky high in calories (sugar-- including any kind of fruit-- tends to do that). After experimenting a bit, here's the recipe I use the most:
Heidi's Green Smoothie
1 frozen banana
1 6 oz. container Greek yogurt (I like to use strawberry or peach or raspberry)
1/2 c. frozen mixed fruit (I use a store brand mix that includes strawberries, peaches & mangoes)
8 oz. unsweetened soy milk
1 1/2 c. raw baby spinach
Blend them all together and add a little water to get the desired consistency (if you don't want it like a thick shake). Really blend it well because chunks of frozen fruit and spinach that aren't pureed are kinda hard to choke down.
Every so often my husband will want some so I'll double the amount of frozen mixed fruit, soy milk, and spinach. Comes out well that way too. Right now I also toss in a few leaves of butter lettuce from my friend's garden (but don't do too much of this or your smoothie will be bitter!)
Tomorrow I'm planning on my 2nd 12 mile run. I'm dreading it already, but I'm not giving up! That's the lesson I needed to learn last week. Never give up! (With my diet changes and my running). I can do this!
I've been doing great about sticking to my allotted calories. I've even managed to get all my water in this week (pretty much). The veggies goal has been harder. I just don't like them. There are a few I like, and I enjoy a good salad piled high from a good salad bar, but that's not practical for at home veggie cramming. When I'm hungry for a snack I just don't reach for the cherry tomatoes or a cucumber, you know what I mean? Sauteed zucchini takes effort. I love jicama, but chopping a jicama into edible pieces is something that is way too easy to put off. So I eat a lot of baby carrots, but there's only so many of those I can eat in a day before my digestive system is quite messed up, if you catch my drift.
A good green smoothie helps get at least one veggie serving in, and I've found one that I can make pretty easily at home. The trouble is finding the right balance between taste and a reasonable amount of calories. The better tasting the green smoothie, the more likely that it's sky high in calories (sugar-- including any kind of fruit-- tends to do that). After experimenting a bit, here's the recipe I use the most:
Heidi's Green Smoothie
1 frozen banana
1 6 oz. container Greek yogurt (I like to use strawberry or peach or raspberry)
1/2 c. frozen mixed fruit (I use a store brand mix that includes strawberries, peaches & mangoes)
8 oz. unsweetened soy milk
1 1/2 c. raw baby spinach
Blend them all together and add a little water to get the desired consistency (if you don't want it like a thick shake). Really blend it well because chunks of frozen fruit and spinach that aren't pureed are kinda hard to choke down.
Every so often my husband will want some so I'll double the amount of frozen mixed fruit, soy milk, and spinach. Comes out well that way too. Right now I also toss in a few leaves of butter lettuce from my friend's garden (but don't do too much of this or your smoothie will be bitter!)
Tomorrow I'm planning on my 2nd 12 mile run. I'm dreading it already, but I'm not giving up! That's the lesson I needed to learn last week. Never give up! (With my diet changes and my running). I can do this!
Sunday, June 8, 2014
A Lesson
So I got a very unpleasant shock when I stepped on the scale Saturday morning for my official weigh-in. My weight was something like 151.4. I was so upset I didn't even really note the weight well enough to get it entered into my food diary, so I can't say for sure. That's 3 lbs. up from my weigh in the week before!
I wanted to cry.
I really, really wanted to cry.
Now, I know from long experience that weigh fluctuates, and a couple of pounds there one day may be gone the next. Who knows, perhaps I was extra bloated that morning. And sure enough, this morning on the scale I was down to 149.2. But really, this up and down between about 147 & 152 pounds has been the norm for the last year. That's what I want to change. But it's not changing, and that's what makes me want to cry. Especially since I had a really good week, with drinking my water, exercising, keeping to my food diary, and even eating more veggies.
I know there's a lesson here, I just don't know what it is.
Do I need to give up on my gradual food diary approach and go back to a much more restrictive diet?
Do I need to go to the doctor and see if I have something hormonal going on?
Do I need to take a leap and try one of the gazillion various supplements that my friends are promoting for weight loss?
Do I need to just be patient and not let the number on the scale ruin my day?
My husband votes for the last option. He says that he can see changes in me, that I'm toned and firmer, never mind what the scale says. But I can't see them, not really. Still, how can I be running 12 miles (like I did yesterday) and not see some changes? Even if it's just massive calf muscles?
This weight loss stuff is hard. It's hard mentally. But I'm not giving up. I only fail if I give up.
I wanted to cry.
I really, really wanted to cry.
Now, I know from long experience that weigh fluctuates, and a couple of pounds there one day may be gone the next. Who knows, perhaps I was extra bloated that morning. And sure enough, this morning on the scale I was down to 149.2. But really, this up and down between about 147 & 152 pounds has been the norm for the last year. That's what I want to change. But it's not changing, and that's what makes me want to cry. Especially since I had a really good week, with drinking my water, exercising, keeping to my food diary, and even eating more veggies.
I know there's a lesson here, I just don't know what it is.
Do I need to give up on my gradual food diary approach and go back to a much more restrictive diet?
Do I need to go to the doctor and see if I have something hormonal going on?
Do I need to take a leap and try one of the gazillion various supplements that my friends are promoting for weight loss?
Do I need to just be patient and not let the number on the scale ruin my day?
My husband votes for the last option. He says that he can see changes in me, that I'm toned and firmer, never mind what the scale says. But I can't see them, not really. Still, how can I be running 12 miles (like I did yesterday) and not see some changes? Even if it's just massive calf muscles?
This weight loss stuff is hard. It's hard mentally. But I'm not giving up. I only fail if I give up.
Monday, June 2, 2014
Hotness Helps
Well, my Sunday was a partial success-- I didn't overeat, so that was a plus. But yet again, I didn't manage to get enough water! Part of my problem was that I was just NOT feeling well. But again, I think I need to be better at getting the water down, even when I don't feel great. Especially when it's a heat advisory day.
Today has gone fine. I've even already met my water goal, so that's a success. I downed the first half of my whole water total within a couple of hours of being awake. Going on a bike ride during a warm summer day will certainly help with that! I still have a serving of veggies to get in before bed though. I guess my bedtime snack might be some peas. Yum. (I guess it could be worse.) Tomorrow I'm going to try and throw in a salad and some jicama. I do love jicama!
Today has gone fine. I've even already met my water goal, so that's a success. I downed the first half of my whole water total within a couple of hours of being awake. Going on a bike ride during a warm summer day will certainly help with that! I still have a serving of veggies to get in before bed though. I guess my bedtime snack might be some peas. Yum. (I guess it could be worse.) Tomorrow I'm going to try and throw in a salad and some jicama. I do love jicama!
Sunday, June 1, 2014
Official Weigh-In #4 (Heidi)
A much more reassuring number this week!
148.6 pounds.
So I'm down 2.4 lbs. from last week. I'm quite pleased with that! Now if I can just keep it up.
I've done pretty good with my eating this week, though I've struggled with my water intake. I struggle the most on Sunday, with water as much as eating, so I'm determined to do better today.
Yesterday I still managed my last 11 mile run, even though I'm so congested from some stupid cold that it was hard to breathe. My husband wanted me to take it easy; he didn't understand that I HAVE to run. There is no way on earth I will be ready for a marathon if I take breaks, since I only have one long training run a week. But anyway, I managed the run, even if by evening I was one miserably sick lady.
(I hope being sick isn't the reason for my 2 lb drop! I've been eating normally so I don't think it is.)
Next week I'm on to my first 12 mile run (I've never run so long before ever), and I'm going to try to make sure I get at least 3 servings of veggies a day. I can do this!
148.6 pounds.
So I'm down 2.4 lbs. from last week. I'm quite pleased with that! Now if I can just keep it up.
I've done pretty good with my eating this week, though I've struggled with my water intake. I struggle the most on Sunday, with water as much as eating, so I'm determined to do better today.
Yesterday I still managed my last 11 mile run, even though I'm so congested from some stupid cold that it was hard to breathe. My husband wanted me to take it easy; he didn't understand that I HAVE to run. There is no way on earth I will be ready for a marathon if I take breaks, since I only have one long training run a week. But anyway, I managed the run, even if by evening I was one miserably sick lady.
(I hope being sick isn't the reason for my 2 lb drop! I've been eating normally so I don't think it is.)
Next week I'm on to my first 12 mile run (I've never run so long before ever), and I'm going to try to make sure I get at least 3 servings of veggies a day. I can do this!
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