Well, my weigh-in this week was up again...149.4 (which is +1.4 lbs from last week). It's so baffling. My weight dropped down to 147 during the week but of course didn't stay there. I need to go look up my old weight charts from back the last time I lost so much weight. Was it always like this? Or am I just stuck in my forever plateau?
There is one major difference between the last time I lost all this weight and now. I worried about it less then. I was so content with how I looked by this particular weight and so patient about just letting things happen when they happened. There was no drama about having gained a pound back over a week, nor any angst about how I looked. I felt so confident because at that point all I focused on was how much better I felt for the first time in years.
I don't have that euphoric feeling anymore. It makes this so much harder. I get discouraged so easily, and I just don't see myself as successful (like I did before). Silly. I'll keep on plugging along though.
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